Tag: rants

February 4th, ‘08

The usage of "gay" as an insult.

I know I haven’t posted in a while, and quite frankly I may give up on blogging entirely, but this bugged me enough to want to ‘speak out’ on it. For a while now I’ve argued with a certain friend on using gay as an insult and she has stopped as a result of me. But other friends still do, and it’s used around the world as I now see.

I don’t know when it started, but for me it was like being hit in the head with a two-by-four. Because my first contact with it was someone saying “you’re gay” to me or “that’s gay” when I did something, one of the two. And I remember not feeling insulted but staring confusedly at them. Wondering how I just acted in a homosexual way.

I personally don’t think it’s okay to use it as insult, and so far don’t know how the LBGTQA (etc. etc.) community as a whole feels about it. I may even be ranting about it a little late in the game, but I’m pissed off nonetheless. My friends are religious people so the fact that they’re using the word at all baffled me. I don’t know how they can justify it as okay.

But it didn’t truly hit me how prevalent the usage was until I discussed it with a gay person. Then decided to googled it—then was where it hit me of course it resulting in finding millions of hits about the topic. And I’m just a little more than tired of people’s hatred for “different” things/people/etc.

First was my outrage that there are still racist people out there, next is this. Why can’t we all just get along? We’re all people, all the same on the inside. I make it a point to be politically correct as much as possible, and make it point not to offend anyone. Or dislike anyone based on something as silly as race/creed/sexual orientation/religion/whatever else you can think of.

I don’t know if it’s because of the area I’m living in (white bread country apparently) or the people I know. But either way I’m not happy and tired of it. I also am just plain tired so this is a less than eloquent post I know. But after seemingly finding a solution—one I’m going to personally use to combat this. I am now going to link it to all of you (hopefully) good people.

How to combat the usage of gay as an insult.
Also: Why it’s unintelligent and offensive to use the term as an insult.

August 30th, ‘07

Always the last to find out!

Well. I can’t remember what I was gonna blog about really. Except just now I finally came across an artist I’ve also linked for years and seen on Custo and never really knew about!!! Well, I never saw their dA account, and the rest of their works.

http://novenarik.deviantart.com/gallery/—Another old school artist everyone knows about.

So, I’m complaining about that. That and getting pushed off the popular additions for subpar stuff. And. Yeah. I’m a little pissed. AND GET THIS! There was a bloody lunar eclipse Tuesday or something, that NOT A DANG ONE OF MY FRIENDS CARED TO TELL ME ABOUT! Because I’m the bloody last to find out about everything. I’ve been in a bad mood and had ADD. Eh.

OH. And this weekend I’m going camping. And I’m a little uneasy about it. I haven’t been since I was like 11, and it wasn’t THAT great of an experience. I hope it all goes well. o_O

July 25th, ‘07

The span of a couple days.

Well Sunday and Monday and those nights I finished a whole season of a TV show. Finished my GAIA ShellWM Skins. And got a bunch of albums I wanted, and my music collection is around 30 albums now. Also: I worked on a new desktop quite a bit, and am getting closer and closer to finishing it.

And since I want it to be at least somewhat of a surprise I’m not going to disclose all the juicy details as to why it’s gonna be different from my other shots in some big ways. So, erm. Other than that now I can’t think of what the heck I was gonna blog. I had a fun time tonight, it was hilarious—we went out for dollar-a-scoop ice cream and my friend’s little brother is just so hilarious, he apparently can make anyone laugh. In fact I told her when I’m depressed I’m going to your house to get cheered up.

OH. What really pissed me off that I’m now gonna rant about is that yesterday at like 2-3 ‘o clock IN THE MORNING on Custo Lamp said in an hour GAIA will release. And I thought oh, crap I thought they were gonna bloody do it in the DAYTIME. Even by Custo’s clock it was like 5am or earlier, but whatever. So I wait … THREE BLOODY HOURS LATER IT STILL ISN’T RELEASED.

THEN when he finally gets online I find out it’s the CORE release—as in I’m not really apart of it. I’m a part of the community release, the rolling release. As in I could’ve been bloody sleeping! So yeah after I found that out I went to bed, just to end up staying in bed all day and ruining all the crap I had to do for the day. But whatever. I guess I’m not pissed anymore. And also since I can’t remember what else I was gonna say I ish done now.

July 8th, ‘07

Animal cruelty.

I just found out about the fact that they exclusively torture chickens at KFC. And am really pissed about it, I had no idea. And right now I nothing else to add to this rant, may update later.

But for now just bloody visit http://kfccruelty.com.

Today all I did was go out to eat in the afternoon, to my fave thai place, got the pad thai, AND I HAVE LEFTOVERS! Hehe, all excited over that. We got ice cream afterwards, but man were we full couldn’t finish it all.

On a sidepoint: My blog now looks bloody fantastic! All thanks to Alex. He updated the lingua app, and did the theme for me, now it fits perfectly with my site.

June 13th, ‘07

ARRGH! Something happened.

Okay so yesterday I got into a fight with my stepdad and felt the repercussions of said fight today. And I’m at a friends house until later on tonight, whenever she decides she’ll take me home. I don’t really wanna go home, but I don’t have the comforts of my own computer, nor the ability to talk to all you custo’ers or any thing.

But I should mention I can be on a little bit while here, but only on custo and gsm for now. AND the worst thing is that my stepdad said that he wasn’t gonna let me go on the computer for the rest of the week or more. I don’t know if he’s gonna follow through with it, I just know it’s annoying and I’m upset about it.

It shouldn’t have happened, MY MOTHER had previously told me since I AM an adult and over 18 years of age I just have to let her know when I’m going out and such. But he got upset at me for not wanting to tell him why I missed my “driving appointment” —when I DID. I just didn’t tell him why I overslept because I don’t bloody know! I HAVE INSOMNIA.

Any way, so that night he said I HAD to ask her for PERMISSION to go out. I got upset and walked away and he got upset and then made me talk about it more today. So yeah today I’m upset and at a friends house. And I’ll see you all when I can—whenever I can get back on the computer. But dang it I’m thinking things just aren’t gonna be smooth in the household for a while…

June 12th, ‘07

When am I not pissed off?

Warning: This is going to sound redundant, possibly annoying, and unfortunately most likely whiney.

I HATE COMPUTERS ALL OVER AGAIN!!!!! This is part of why I freaking quit last time!!! I am so sick of this stupid ridiculous piece of freaking crap!!! Lets start from the beginning. I finally decide to get a stupid freaking crappy last.fm account. Just to freaking find out the freaking stupid plugin on the freaking stupid site doesn’t work with stupid freaking Foobar 0.8.

And after much searching for an old version of the stupid freaking plugin. I freaking found a stupid crappy version of the 1.2.4 audioscrobbler plugin. JUST FOR IT NOT TO FREAKING WORK. And it only didn’t work after much effort and hair pulling to get it installed. So I finally decide to give in and try the new version of Foobar AGAIN.

And after much effort I finally got that crap installed, in my personal dir instead of program files because of the freaking crappy UAC control that if I turn off my whole computer breaks. And making myself an admin makes almost no difference at all. Because vista is crap and I hate it beyond reason. Of freaking course.

And then after installing that crap, then pulling my hair out trying to get Foobar to look good, I freaking gave up on fancy configs. And figured out how to get the crap to look how I have it on the old version. WHICH MAKES THE WHOLE FREAKING THING FREAKING POINTLESS!!!! I finally freaking give up on that. Then install the stupid crappy freaking audios freaking scrobbler freaking plugin. AND THE FREAKING CRAP DOESN’T FREAKING WORK AT FREAKING ALL!!!!

So after all the freaking hair pulling pointless effort, AFTER my first time of freaking pointless hair pulling effort. The whole stupid freaking thing doesn’t freaking work. And no I didn’t do it all for the stupid freaking SLOW dumb account. I WAS trying to use FB 0.9 again so I could use freaking plugins! Because even if I find old plugins for the stupid crappy thing they don’t freaking work.

So to recap in short: I can’t get any good plugins to work for old Foobar. I can’t get any freaking crap to work on new FB STILL. It just FREAKING LOADS this time. And I can’t get my stupid freaking last.fm account to work. AND ALL OF THIS OTHER FREAKING PEOPLE CAN GET TO WORK!!!! But no not me, EVEN OTHER FREAKING VISTA USERS CAN GET IT ALL TO WORK!!!! But noo not me! For no good freaking reason either.

May 31st, ‘07

Vista can rot in you know where.

THAT’S IT! I can’t freaking take it any more, I am an inch away from quitting customizing AGAIN! Last time I did because I got fed up with every thing, and couldn’t go any further. But this time Vista is gonna be the culprit! I am on the brink of insanity because of Vista. I lost access to a lot of my favorite programs. I was forced to update all programs so they’d work.

EVERY FREAKING HACK/MOD DOES NOT FREAKING WORK ON VISTA!!!!!!!!!!!! If I were to sit down and make a list of every thing that didn’t work it’d take all of my life! It’d be easier to make a list of the things that DO work. BESIDES all my old programs not working, new programs that are actually old and made for XP don’t freaking work on Vista! AND THEN there’s programs that claim to work on Vista that don’t!!!!

Just because I managed a new shot or two that don’t suck completely doesn’t mean I am happy in my customizing, FAR FROM IT! I am so pissed SO PISSED I went back around from pissed to calm lest I have a heart attack. I had finally got rid of my anger problem, UNTIL VISTA CAME ALONG! Ruined EVERYTHING I came to know and love about customizing computers. I tried to be a trooper, I TRIED to suck it up and custo as good as I could. BUT NOOOO!!!!!

And BESIDES the things I’ve already listed there’s TONS more I can’t even recall right now. I have to live with ICONS. Programs that ACTUALLY work for OTHER FREAKING PEOPLE, DON’T FREAKING WORK FOR ME!!!! And ya know I’m just done with it. I have lost hope entirely. I can’t just sit around and wait until Vista dies. I am gonna freakin’ quit again.

On a side note this video is just AMAZING. And relaxing. =P

EDIT: It’s amazing how a quarter gallon of ice cream just makes every thing better. ;D

May 16th, ‘07

New SS/And a thought.

So I finally finished my new screen shot I had been working on. And subbed it tonight. I ish excited. :D

Other then that, now I can’t think of what I wanted to say… I got pissed off at a user at Custo. Got into a bit of a scrape. But he’s annoying and deliberately pisses me off. But it got me thinkin’ … I know Linux has to win. It natively has all the customizable options that we put in. And about huge corporations and greedy money making machines. Like Starbucks, I much prefer a ‘dive’ little coffeeshop and restaurant, over the big franchises. Usually they have the best food and stuff, they put more work and love into it. Don’t just slap out prepackaged crap and call it awesome. And they do it because they love it, and they still get paid for it so it works fine with them.

It applies to software, OSes and computers alike. Open Source is the ideal, it’s how things should be in an ideal place/world. A Utopian society, really. And the fact that Linux tries to do that makes them superior among all others. They aren’t just doing it for the money, for the greed of it. They make their stuff because they love it. And they let other people contribute to it to make it even better. And I can’t stress it enough, that soon and I know it, Linux will be up there with Windows and Mac, and become ‘granny friendly’ like they want to. And I look forward to it, nay—I welcome it with open arms, waiting to give it a warm embrace. AND I don’t just apply the Utopian idea to software, I mean let me just say ‘Duuhh!’ it should be applied to all living. Freely giving/sharing food, clothing, shelter, etc. As well, it just seems that computers and software is a good starting point.

And I pity the person who can’t understand what a beautiful thing Open Source stuff is, and how good it really is. I mean just look beyond the aspect of money just for a second will you? Is that so hard? Pick up a book and read about Utopia, use your imagination. If we can attain it at least in the computer world… Don’t you think it’d be amazing, wonderful, happy, and just completely peaceful? I sure would love that.. and I know many others would as well.