So today I spent like three hours trying to get something to work on my computer again. I always remember the quote from Big Fish where he says the more work something takes the more it’s worth it. That’s a terrible paraphrase but I can’t find the whole quote anywhere. And in the end I got what I wanted working, but it didn’t quite work out if that makes sense. So it was all in vein and I don’t think that quote is always applicable.

Anyway, after abandoning like three different desktops I’ve finally landed on one I like a freaking lot. I love it. I’ve been using it for a while, and think I could use it for a long time. It’s based off of someone else’s mockup, but that person won’t be mentioned until submission to keep the mystery. :) Anyway it’s been many months since I’ve subbed a desktop, and this one I’m actually gonna finish and sub. Then probably “quit” customizing for a while. I may come back, but I’ve pretty much lost all motivation and inspiration to customize, except to finish this last desktop.

1. Tegan and Sara – The Con
2. Husky Rescue – Ghost Is Not Real

That is all.

Heh. No the rest I very much like too. Actually choosing between Missy Higgins and Husky Rescue was really difficult, they ought to be a tie for second. Except her first album is like a million times better, if that one had been made this year it could’ve very well been second.

3. Missy Higgins – On A Clear Night
4. Buildings Breeding – Buildings Breeding
5. Explosions In The Sky – All Of The Sudden I Miss Everyone
6. Justice – †
7. Emilie Autumn – Laced/Unlaced
8. Iron & Wine – The Shepherd’s Dog
9. Yeah Yeah Yeahs – Is Is
10. CocoRosie – The Adventures of Ghosthorse And Stillborn

I don’t know when it started, but for me it was like being hit in the head with a two-by-four. Because my first contact with it was someone saying “you’re gay” to me or “that’s gay” when I did something, one of the two. And I remember not feeling insulted but staring confusedly at them. Wondering how I just acted in a homosexual way.

I personally don’t think it’s okay to use it as insult, and so far don’t know how the LBGTQA (etc. etc.) community as a whole feels about it. I may even be ranting about it a little late in the game, but I’m pissed off nonetheless. My friends are religious people so the fact that they’re using the word at all baffled me. I don’t know how they can justify it as okay.

But it didn’t truly hit me how prevalent the usage was until I discussed it with a gay person. Then decided to googled it—then was where it hit me of course it resulting in finding millions of hits about the topic. And I’m just a little more than tired of people’s hatred for “different” things/people/etc.

First was my outrage that there are still racist people out there, next is this. Why can’t we all just get along? We’re all people, all the same on the inside. I make it a point to be politically correct as much as possible, and make it point not to offend anyone. Or dislike anyone based on something as silly as race/creed/sexual orientation/religion/whatever else you can think of.

I don’t know if it’s because of the area I’m living in (white bread country apparently) or the people I know. But either way I’m not happy and tired of it. I also am just plain tired so this is a less than eloquent post I know. But after seemingly finding a solution—one I’m going to personally use to combat this. I am now going to link it to all of you (hopefully) good people.

How to combat the usage of gay as an insult.
Also: Why it’s unintelligent and offensive to use the term as an insult.

I would be insane by now if I hadn’t gotten back into my winter pattern. I swear my eyes rolled back in my head at the first sip of my coffee. Granted I’ve been up since 9am, and it’s almost 1pm now. I should’ve started the morning this way, I must start setting my coffeemaker to brew itself in the morning. Then they wouldn’t suck so bad.

The perfect winter morning: sitting back comfy and warm in your covers, listening to fantastic music. Sipping on your coffee, and reading a good book. Unfortunately the book(s) I want are not in possession at this current moment. I am trying to bribe my stepdad to go to the library for me to pick up the one I put on hold.

Anyway. I feel like death, I walked so much I am really sore. Again. I did this last week, but this week I hurt less. But, I’m going to attempt to customize today, I have a slight idea of something that might not suck. I don’t know. A whole desktop feels quite impossible at the moment.

Update:

I read Ghost World tonight, it had a lot more go on in the book I think, quite a bit different. I like different elements from both the movie and the book. Both amongst my favorites. But I do believe I like the book more than the movie as a whole. It’s just got a different overall feel that the film interpretation lacked.

I’ve got like three weeks with it from the library I could either return it fast and give others opportunity to read it. Since I had it sent there, OR selfishly keep it and read it a couple more times before I return it. Heh. Haven’t decided yet. :P

And it occurred to me the song I listed above must be in my top faves list, recently both times I listened to it through in the morning I was instantly put in a good mood. I think it’s more to do with my perfect morning than the whole layout I described. I dunno, but today has been post-rock/instrumental music day either way. They were basically the only vocal band I listened to all day.

I got my old computer fixed (it was ridiculously easy) by a friend, and am now using everything I used to use in my XP days except the monitor. Due to annoying parents who got rid of it. Claiming I didn’t “voice” my thoughts on how fixable the computer was. Oh yeah, and I’M ON XP NOW!

I’m slowly but surely getting used to relearning a lot of stuff I used to know. And then learning some new stuff that came out after I lost my computer. I’ve been running a temporary desktop that’s become rather permanent, and is extremely comfy and quite cheery I think. :)

I’ve got a couple ideas rolling around in my head for customization, but so far none that seem worth pursuing. With my new ability to skin every aspect of a window and such I’m kind of overwhelmed. I mean I AM very graphically challenged. But, hopefully a new desktop will spill forth out of me at some point in the near future.

Any remotely interesting thing I may have thought of for a blog I was to lazy to blog about. So I’m just gonna update you all a little. A lot of crap has happened in real life I’m not going to go into—also the fact that some of my friends may read this sort of bothers me. I usually always used to try to keep my online life separate, but the two are meshing. Slightly unsettling … I may be slowly turning into a shut-in though.

Aside from that. Computer problems are getting worse, some may know recently I tried to finally get away from the controlling aspect of using my mother’s laptop. And bought an old crappy laptop, yes it was a bad idea, but I was desperate. NOW I’m so desperate to get back to XP and my own da … ng machine I’m gonna try and fix my old computer, I think it could happen with some work. But I bloody hate desktops, somehow I’ll find a workaround though.

So besides what I’ve already mentioned … uh, there isn’t much to say. Except I may be also getting stranger and stranger. Certain people are rubbing off on me. And I myself am just getting worse, like I said shut-in UBER GEEK. I’m getting geekier, and weirder. I stopped watching TV entirely many months ago. Now I watch obscure independent films, foreign films, and cancelled television shows. But at least a plus about all this is I’ve been finding some really awesome music and movies. :D

So, Tuesday I hung out with a friend and had a fantastic time, nothing to tremendously eventful happened though. Except I got to ride a Vespa! IT WAS TERRIFYING … BUT AWESOME!! I liken it to theme park rides. For me, at least, I had never been on anything remotely like it before.

I had for the first time ever, vegetables actually grown out of someone’s garden—‘cause they live in the country. And they were AWESOME. My gosh, they were just sautéed in butter, so it must’ve been because they were homegrown that made them taste so good.

But anywoo, that night I was super hyper, we think because I didn’t have coffee—but I think it was partly due to the fact that I was so happy. Eh, I call it a draw. Wednesday I was supposed to go walking with another friend, but it didn’t happen. Which wasn’t terrible, since I was feeling especially lazy that day.

And then tonight, I was SUPPOSED to go dancing with a friend. (The same one from Tuesday.) BUT at the last moment she realized that since she got off work at 9:30pm and then the ride to my house making it 10pm then getting there at like 10:30pm with the place closing at midnight, and us missing the class at 8pm. I would just look EVEN MORE like a fool, and have very little time to even practice, at all. So she changed the plans and said we’d have to go on a night she gets off early.

Long story short, another friend is pissed off at me because I didn’t stay the night at her house. EVEN though I had these plans set for like 3 weeks. And told her that. And tried to change the sleepover to Thursday. But she didn’t even try, she wanted Friday, Thursday AND Friday or nothing. And then got pissed that I was hanging out with someone else. GAH. I’m upset about it. ‘Cause with the way she is, it would’ve been better if she just didn’t know—‘cause she’s SUPER PISSED AT ME! =/

Anyway. I did have fun tonight though. Until that happened at least. I saw Balls of Fury—which was actually really funny. We ended up landing on that ‘cause that’s what was playing at the theater closest to me, so we didn’t have to drive forever to get to the other one late and see a probably not as good movie. Then went out to eat. And now I have no money again. Stuff is expensive. We should’ve ate at my house. Dang it.

On the computer front: I took so bloody long to make my other screen shot I tired of it very quickly, and have been bouncing around between wallpapers and themes. Now I landed on a remix of Nitzua’s Midsummer Classic shot—one of my big favorites. That I really like, and almost wish I had posted instead. But not really, I more-likely would like to submit this. But nothing’s really changed enough for me to do so. So eh.

It was to bright that night. I SAW A TON OF STARS I didn’t even know bloody existed. And I saw the milky way cloud-like stuff along with the some constellations, and a shooting star. I saw the end of it, but it was still really pretty.

And I climbed a vertical dirt wall off the side of a little mountain by the roots of trees! Slide down a dirt hill. Jumped from one giant rock to another of a five and a half foot distance, with very little landing space.

Got to go to a lake, and some falls, where the water was extremely freezing. And supposedly I got “sun kissed” so I have a bit of a tan on my forehead, nose, and cheeks. Which seems odd to me. I got to play what I call camping games, and make s’mores.

And just all in all I had a great time, didn’t use half the crap I packed, especially because SOMEONE told me it was four days when really it was not even three. The only reason it felt like three was because I was up most of the night on Friday, and then it was freezing. Saturday not so much, but there was lots of snoring. And there was five of us in the tent, but it was comfortable.

Now I can’t remember what else I did, those are probably the biggest highlights. It was just a blast really, I’m really glad I got to go. And the people I went with were great. And this is gonna be a yearly thing, so that’ll be cool. The only thing that made the trip suck, was on the last day two of their cameras got stolen. Expensive cameras they loved, with all our memories on them. We’re still pissed about it.

http://novenarik.deviantart.com/gallery/—Another old school artist everyone knows about.

So, I’m complaining about that. That and getting pushed off the popular additions for subpar stuff. And. Yeah. I’m a little pissed. AND GET THIS! There was a bloody lunar eclipse Tuesday or something, that NOT A DANG ONE OF MY FRIENDS CARED TO TELL ME ABOUT! Because I’m the bloody last to find out about everything. I’ve been in a bad mood and had ADD. Eh.

OH. And this weekend I’m going camping. And I’m a little uneasy about it. I haven’t been since I was like 11, and it wasn’t THAT great of an experience. I hope it all goes well. o_O

Also: Lately I’ve been discovering the kind of art I have always loved. I still can’t seem to explain the style to my friends, but I’ve fallen in love with it. And I just found out about an apparently old school artist on dA.

http://jasinski.deviantart.com/gallery—Okay I bloody love this dude, I could propose to him solely based on his art.
http://www.impsandmonsters.com/—Also I found out about a local artist in Seattle. I’d love to see more of his work.

But yeah, I linked a bunch of people a couple posts ago. I love this style of art.

Complete randomness: Sometimes I wish I was an admin on sites just so I could correct people’s grammar, or typos. Is that strange? o_O

So understandably so she got bored/lonely/etc. and decided to have me over. It was fun, we stayed up watching movies eating and such. Just a laid back night. Though I ended up being a Barbie doll by the end of the night. She had me try on all the girly dresses I wouldn’t be caught dead in in the daytime. But eh, she cleaned out her closet and therefore gave me clothes so yay. :D

Then Friday, I slept over at a different friend’s house, my weekly Friday sleepover. We did a whole lotta nothin’ and we were both grumpy. And I was especially moody, I did have a bit of a crappy week, despite all the new clothes. So I’m upset that I crappified our Friday basically. I dunno. I have no idea if she remotely had fun. And now I can’t even remember what we did. Bah.

Saturday, I slept over again at the first friend’s house. Originally I was supposed to go over to clean her car for some money that she already advanced me that I spent on clothes. But we ended up eating and watching movies again and forgetting about it. I’ve got to get that done. That night I didn’t sleep as well as I could’ve. ‘Cause I’m bloody sore. Me being my clumsy self hurt my shoulder, and a good portion of my back. Playing ball. Pfft.

Anywoo. I’ve been invited to go camping this coming Friday with a whole mess of people. I’m ever so slightly unsettled by the idea because I haven’t been camping in SO many years. And my last camping experience wasn’t even that good. And for some reason people think I’m gonna be one of those seriously not outdoorsy types … hey, as long as there’s an actual toilet I’m good. o_O

On the computer front: Well. My “top secret” desktop I’ve been working on for now almost TWO months. May just turn out to be a myth lol. Today I did a couple seemingly nonexistent/useless things to it. Very little details I changed.

Except on my lost blog, I did mention something I accomplished. I did something new with BBLeanSkin, and basically I think it’s what I’ve been searching for to complete the desktop. I love it even more now. But yet, do not submit. Like I said. I still seem to be fiddling with / worrying over more little details. But dang it these really added something to it!

Oh. And hopefully I will have a new(ish) website layout. Which will rock. :) Even though my first priority ought to be to recode it … quite frankly it works well enough and I don’t care at the moment haha.

But that’s about it. I’m excited ‘cause Thursday I get to go shopping! And I’m gonna have some money to do so, even. Lastly, tomorrow, I may or may not motivate myself to progress further on my desktop. If I can get ahold of the stuff I want to use.

At this point I may end up scratching the whole idea and starting something new. But I’m refraining from doing that. So anyway, I can’t remember what else I was gonna say, except for talk about the test I took.

My brother were talking, and he suggested I ought to take a geek quiz so we all know once and for all just how geeky am I? I believe I took one before, may even been this very one—it looked familiar. This one in particular is very comprehensive compared to the many others that came up in my search results. And after taking it, here’s what I got:

Now. That is unusually high for girls, and only two points away from the usual guy result. But what really shows that I’m true geek is that I saved the webpage as an html file. THEN edited it so all the images would show up.

All just so I could have all the extra statistics that came along with that little image they give you. And also didn’t even copy and paste the HTML that gave me for blogging, I just typed it all out from memory. Doesn’t everyone? … SO. In short. I am a HUUUGE geek.

UPDATE: Okay, while I was up all night, to complicate matters more with my desktop. I did accomplish something. Basically yet another option of something I could do. I dunno, I can’t really elaborate without giving anything away. :) And I’m a little pissed, my Launchy isn’t working, since it deleted ALL my dirs and I had to reput them in. And no one was online at all. Allll night. =/

Anyway. Other than that. A friend came over, who had been shopping, and for me no less. So I got to hang out with her, try on a mess of clothes, and get some new clothes. I’m happy about it. :D And I had fun, hadn’t seen her in a while.

Erm. And other than that. I suppose, computer related … today I’ve been on a art kick. Instead of progressing on my should-be-already-submitted desktop I’ve been browsing surrealistic art. And now shall link some cool people.

Mikeatron.com—Just found it today.

LUKE CHUEH —I was just linked to it by Skryingbreath. I finally know who did the famous scrambled eggs painting.

MediumPhobic / Nicholas Di Genova—Just found this again, I lost the link, and forgot it was on one of Aero’s shots.

FeralFungus’s dA Gala—After Custo went down (again) I started browsing dA. In Surreal. I found a couple good people.

justinaerni’s dA Gala—And many different styles I like. I miss art. I ought to start drawing again.

Man. I’m gonna have to reorganize my bookmarks. Again. Might have to organize my art folder according to the style or art now. OH. And after browsing dA for a while. I’ve discovered I absolutely hate the fact that there are no page numbers. It’s NEVER ENDING!!!!! Gah.

And that I do believe using site:deviantart.com in Google is better than their search engine. AND searching within a category is virtually impossible. You have to search, THEN click one of the categories in the results, THEN it searches it. The moron who said dA’s navigation is better is well, a BLOODY MORON!

UPDATE: I finally got Simpsonized! And it was almost more effort than it was worth. Also: I bloody signed up so it would save it, and the piece of crap lost it.

Also: Alex don’t even mention your little photo feature. ‘Cause it’s always given me MySQL errors.

On the computer front / randomness: I have all but given up on my desktop. I’ve lost all motivation, and can’t figure out why I won’t submit it. I don’t know what other finishing touches I think I’m going to put on it.

And, does it make me a tremendously large geek if the first thing I look forward to after cutting my nails is feeling the keyboard? It just feels so much nicer without really long nails. I dunno. I may be insane. o_O

Lastly, I wasted a colossal amount of time on AngryLittleGirl’s videos at youtube today. The ability to watch the ramblings of other people has contributed to my procrastination to a disturbingly large amount. And to add to my geekity I wanna know to play a game on a graphic calculator. Best 18 second youtube video.

UPDATE: After hours upon hours of tedious Google searches and forum searches and finding out about many different plugins I found out that in actuality I simply needed a particular version of Columns UI to get the feature I wanted.

And then after more searching found said version. And am now utterly ecstatic! :D I don’t know which FB config I’ll go with in the end. But I now have all the options I wanted in v0.8.3 so yay for me, no upgrading. Which I tried, the new FB hates me. So now I feel like I actually accomplished a few things today. Though only a few, one monumental one, so that works for me.

And this year I said like always “I wanna go on every ride this year dang it.” And I almost made it this year. The only big ride I didn’t go on was the Rign of Fire. But I did go on The Zipper, and some other scary ride I don’t know what it’s called. But The Zipper scared all heck out of me, left me completely witless. I mean, that was the scariest bloody thing I’ve ever done. BUT also the moat AWESOME. I’m happy I mustered up the courage to ride it. Very unforgettable. Other then that, I got to go on a lot of rides, and get some free cotton candy. And I got to eat an elephant ear or two. o_O Which I’ve decided is better than funnel cake, though it’s a close call.

And generally I just had a great time with the group of people I went with. Just like last year. Which made me happy ‘cause quite a few people didn’t come that came last year. But anywoo. I think that’s it. I’m gonna be sleeping over at a friend’s house Thursday and Friday night, and may hang out all of Saturday. Yes I know that’s a lot. But she hates to be alone, and if I don’t she will be. So yeah, won’t be seeing the online second life for a few days. Will probably see y’all on Sunday.

And unless I get my act together and finish my desktop tomorrow before I leave I won’t be subbing a screenshot of my desktop I’ve been working on NEARLY A MONTH. On and off, but yeah. I said I would today. But I didn’t get to. I actually didn’t get anything done I was supposed to today. Spent most of the day being distracted by people, and trying to code crap in LS. Basically I’m fine tuning every painstaking detail in this. Because after this I might not sub for a while. I’m losing all motivation again, and my life is getting … difficult. To say the least.

Man. Do I ever have short blog entries? o_O

Saturday we went out to breakfast at IHOP. And I swear it’s the most food I’ve eaten for breakfast (not breakfast time, it was noon o_O) ever. I had funnel cake, hasbrowns, and an egg white omelette, it was good, but the funnel cake was a little to sweet after a while. Anyways, then we went to Borders, and I read a whole book. I read Alias The Cat, a graphic novel, it looked interesting, it turned out to be just the kind of thing I’d like. Except for a few parts/images I didn’t really care for. Then I started Ghost World, it seemed different from the movie and interesting, but didn’t get far. Now I’m dying to continue it.

Then I watched No Reservations, and for the life of me I couldn’t think of having seen the trailor for it, which bugged me endlessly. But it turned out to be a nice movie, cute and all. Abigail Breslin seem to be doing well as a little actress. I saw a movie for another movie I wanted to see, but now I can’t recall the title, it had Freddie Highmore in it. Anyway, after that we went got stuff to make dinner and ate in. And we watched Benchwarmers, it was okay, not as crappy as I thought it would be, but still I didn’t care for it.

Then my friend made pizza from scratch, it was really good, with fresh basil, I don’t think I ever had fresh basil. And she got these white cheeses, and they were the best cheeses EVER, well next to white cheddar. I love them! And I dislike dairy. And we had with the leftover dough homemade bread and jam for breakfast, also fantastic. And another thing I never had before.

On the computer front:
I sort of put off finishing my desktop, I worked on it some today. And some on the port of eMADme’s VS for GAIA. But I have yet to finish either, I’m tired and gave up for now. I’m probably gonna take my time. And keep this desktop for a long time. As things have been so busy lately. And I took so long to type this I forgot what else I was gonna say. Except for I found my show on Stage6. AND IT’S AWESOME!!!!! My gosh, it loaded in like a minute, AND had excellent quality. Way better than the other streaming stuff I was watching.

And since I forgot what else I was gonna say, I’m done. And I’m sorry to everyone online for not being online and social lately.

Oh yes, I forgot I also volunteered at the fair all week, and got free tickets and parking passes and such. AND on Thursday worked my first twelve hour day, that featured being on my feet ALL day IN CONVERSE SHOES no less, and lifting heavy things. And to think it’s the bloody clothes department, I can only imagine what the others do. I got a ton of free sweets as well, but to top it all off I ate to much of ‘em. Even though I only took one bite of each—I did, because I ended up throwing up in the middle of the night. Yeah that was real fun. Still pissed off about it. Now I like sweets even less, cursed evil homemade things. >_<

I’ve been having headaches and almost violent mood swings. And coincidentally been off of coffee for about a month now. Maybe more, at least it feels like it. I do believe there’s a connection there, I’m thinking I ought to go back on coffee. Also I was/am sleeping extremely badly again, I get to bed early every couple of days. But mainly stay up the whole night, or have terrible restless sleep throughout the night.

And today I was supposed to run that errand, but my adopted aunt called me in the morning to tell me that TODAY I was signed up to volunteer at the fair—so I could get free tickets to get in. I already got the ride pass for the Saturday I’m going. So I was supposed to have time to do both, but I was running late and didn’t think I did. And they ran even more late so it turned out I could’ve done it TWICE. Walked there an back twice that is.

Anyway, it was a rather okay day, kinda busy, kinda not. We got the late start, though I still needed that strong coffee. As it is I never did finish it, it got cold while we were working and then I didn’t want it. Then we went to a lake, but I didn’t feel like swimming, so I just sort of chilled near by, took pictures, read a tiny bit. It was pretty enjoyable.

Then I decided I’m going to make masks out of recycle material (mainly because those ideas came to mind) for the fair, for a contest. I just decided to go for it. But so far I am trying to do a soda can mask, and the darn shards just aren’t staying glued down. So that’s now my backup and/or second mask. The first one now shall be a newspaper half of your face phantomesque mask—which if done right may be cooler than the other one.

On the computer front: I’ve completely put my desktop on hold, ‘cause I still want to fine tune more immense detail into it. And put the most effort I’ve ever put into a screenshot into it, ‘cause it may very well stay for a while. I’m not sure at this point, my last desktop I used for a year was in fact classic—so it could.

And you know I thought of doing a classic ShellWM or even BBLean skin, but I am leaning towards real good ‘ol classic. Just ‘cause I haven’t done that in so long—mainly due to the fact that I can’t replace a marlett in Vista. Aside from that I’m gonna try to port two other VS mockups for GAIA in efforts to contribute more. And that’s my first priority.

And since I want it to be at least somewhat of a surprise I’m not going to disclose all the juicy details as to why it’s gonna be different from my other shots in some big ways. So, erm. Other than that now I can’t think of what the heck I was gonna blog. I had a fun time tonight, it was hilarious—we went out for dollar-a-scoop ice cream and my friend’s little brother is just so hilarious, he apparently can make anyone laugh. In fact I told her when I’m depressed I’m going to your house to get cheered up.

OH. What really pissed me off that I’m now gonna rant about is that yesterday at like 2-3 ‘o clock IN THE MORNING on Custo Lamp said in an hour GAIA will release. And I thought oh, crap I thought they were gonna bloody do it in the DAYTIME. Even by Custo’s clock it was like 5am or earlier, but whatever. So I wait … THREE BLOODY HOURS LATER IT STILL ISN’T RELEASED.

THEN when he finally gets online I find out it’s the CORE release—as in I’m not really apart of it. I’m a part of the community release, the rolling release. As in I could’ve been bloody sleeping! So yeah after I found that out I went to bed, just to end up staying in bed all day and ruining all the crap I had to do for the day. But whatever. I guess I’m not pissed anymore. And also since I can’t remember what else I was gonna say I ish done now.

And then I played games at the arcade. I played this game called CarnEvil. It was a shooting game and it was bloody awesome! Also I dislike Area51 Site 4. I’ve tried to like it, but it just doesn’t work. It pales in comparison to the original. Anyways, I’m tired. I dunno what else I was gonna say so that’s all for now.

On a random note: I don’t believe I’ve blogged about this I’ll check later if I have I’ll take it out. But I noticed a wee bit ago that I use the same voice, face, gestures, etc. with kids as I do with animals. And ya know I do believe that’s a bad thing … ? I think. Not sure actually. But basically I called a dog by kissing twice and saying come here puppy! You know the usual deal. Then proceeded to do the exact same thing with a kid, except I used kid instead of dog at the end of the sentence. So … yeah … wow.

Anyway, on the computer front: two things happened. Well three actually. I finally had decided to post on a forum about getting ahold of XP MS apps like mspaint, notepad, calc, etc. And then it occurred to me that I had learned how to list and search directories on Google. And yes for the record GOOGLE IS ALL POWERFUL! Ok. Yeah I found them all. And EVERY .EXE FILE but Explorer.exe works in Vista! And I’m just so bloody ecstatic I can’t even express it. I CAN MOD AGAIN! So Vista might suck a little less now—if only I could mod the marlett that’d be perfect. Then I could live without ALL the other stuff I can’t do. Maybe.

So that was the good thing that happened to me and that I accomplished today. Other than that I spent TWO BLOODY HOURS on a script today just to fail miserably and revert back to the original. Now I have a custom error page. Just not quite how I tried to get it. BUT I could’ve watched the movie I rented in that time! I was quite upset when I realized I did that. I got to rent Because I said so—I had wanted In The Land Of Women but they didn’t have it. Dern Hollywood Video I bet blockbuster woulda had it!

And lastly I ended up officially pulling out from almost everything I (somehow) got signed up for in the GAIA suite at Custo. I’m gonna try to do as much as possible, but it’s really hard when I get no input or any help with any of it. Nor any graphics I need for it. So eh.